Now What?

Right now, one of Nasko's favorite questions to ask is, "Now what?" Since the weather has turned a bit warmer, Nasko and I have started taking daily walks (me) and bike rides (him).  I spend most of our time reminding Nasko to stay on the road (and out of people's yards and driveways), to watch where he's going, and to be obedient when Mama asks him to turn around and head towards home.

When I am not reminding Nasko of the rules of bike rides, I spend time discussing our surroundings: the houses, the cars, and the landscaping choices made by the homeowners on the south side of Athens.

This year, before we even leave home, Nasko can tell me exactly what route he would like to take, based on the scenery we've seen in the past.

I know that when Nasko says, "Drive by it, little boy, green tractor" that we'll be heading west out of our subdivision until we reach a house where a little boy is fortunate enough to have parents who bought him an amazing green John Deere tractor that can be pedaled.

I also know that "big puddles" is a local street that is graveled, but not paved.  This road has numerous potholes which hold water for days after the most recent rain.

Finally, I know when Nasko says "water" and then leans over and pretends to spit, that we will be heading north over a small creek.  (Now, mind you, I did not teach him to spit into the creek.  His dad taught him that.)

Many times, after we reach the goal location that Nasko had in mind, I will ask the question, "Now what?"  If it's not time to head home for our next activity and the weather is still nice, I allow him the freedom of picking a new destination.

Because of my persistent asking, "Now what?", Nasko has also started using the phrase.

For example, we may have multiple stops as we are running errands in Springfield, and after each one, Nasko asks, "Now what?"  He likes to know what is coming next, and he wants to be told what to expect.

I can't say that I blame him…

In life, I always prefer to know what is coming next.  I don't necessarily enjoy small surprises (like birthday parties or unexpected visitors) and I certainly don't adapt well when big surprises are thrown my way (like being called to move to a new town or give up my job to stay home with our children).  These surprises and changes require time and preparation before I am feeling comfortable with them.  I want to know what is coming next and what to expect.  When I ask God, "Now what?" I would prefer to hear His plan in its entirety.  I want to know all the stops we are going to make along the journey of my life.

Especially as a mom, I've asked God, "Now what?" many times.  Through failed adoptions and multiple miscarriages, all I wanted was to know what was coming next and be told exactly what to expect.

Many times in desperation, I cried out, "Now what?!" to the Creator of the Universe.

I wanted to know the future.  I wanted to see the purpose of suffering.  I wanted to prepare myself for future heartache.

God doesn't always reveal His future plans when we ask.  It's not as simple as telling Nasko that we're heading to Wal-mart, Aldi, County Market, and then home.

But we must remember, God has not asked us to partner with Him because we know the future.  He has asked us to trust in His purpose.

Proverbs 19:21 says, "You can make many plans, but the Lord's purpose will prevail."

This verse teaches one thing to us: God's plans will prevail.

Yes, I have many plans for my own life and that's okay, but those plans really don't matter because I want the Lord's will to be done in my life.

We need to be people who submit to God even when we don't know where we are going next or "Now what?".

God is sovereign and His plans will be accomplished.

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