I have realized that my loss cannot be summed up into one paragraph that someone else wrote. My loss can never be fully expressed in written or spoken word.
Many times, I have cried out to God in anger, frustration, sadness, confusion, and desperation. I am sure that my words have jumbled together and meant nothing to anyone who was quietly listening in the next room, but thank goodness I have a God who understands - even when the cries of my heart don't make sense.
Romans 8:18, 26-27
And the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness. For example, we don’t know what God wants us to pray for. But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words. And the Father who knows all hearts knows what the Spirit is saying, for the Spirit pleads for us believers in harmony with God’s own will.
There is pain, and there is suffering in this world. There is glory and there is blessing in my future though. The Lord is preparing to welcome me Home someday. He already holds three of my babies in His presence. Also, I pray daily that our other lost baby will join us when he has left this world of hardship and pain.
Yet what we suffer now is nothing compared to the glory he will reveal to us later.
Today, on October 15, 2011, National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Rememberance Day, let us remember the children who have died and who have been lost. Let us pray for the 2,000 women who daily suffer from this loss. Let us thank God for His future glory and his ability to make all things beautiful.
I found the following video out in blog-land, and I'm sharing it with you all today. I hope that it touches you and possibly gives you a glimpse of the loss that the women around you are feeling every day.
Possibly you are one of the women who lost a child. I'm praying for you. I'm praying for healing.
Feel free to honor your lost babies by leaving a comment on this blog. You might want to include your child(ren)'s name and a date you associate with them.
Please know that you are not alone.
Lord, please heal the families who have been affected by pregnancy and infant loss. Please remind them of the hope that is offered in knowing You. Please allow the mothers who are suffering to know that they are not alone. Grant us Your peace and protection. Amen
Baby Newingham 1 - 12/26/2009
Baby Newingham 3 - 08/09/2010